7月上旬.杂记

这短短的两个星期，感觉好像过了很久很久，是否是因为思绪浮动的原因呢？

这几天有首歌词不断出现在脑海，认真想了几天，终于让我找到了 :)


生活有太多的崎岖不平，这不是用来阻止自己前进，只是让自己磨练得更好；

2011年，有太多的起起伏伏，让我不断地重新认识自己，或许这就是人生的转折点。


今天第一次一个人在Pavillion内Shop-a-lone，好多人，因为有Liverpool来到，我不是足球迷，所以只是经过看看而已，在众人的呐喊下，自己内心更感到一点点的孤单。

在生活里，当自己要做某些事或说某些话时，而又找不到适合的人时，这就叫着孤单，即使在热闹的人群里、即使facebook内有再多的朋友名单，心情依然是百般的无奈。

发现自己的文字开始乱七八糟了，也该停笔了 ~ 翔

思念

思念，让距离变得无比地遥远，即使只是近在咫尺；

思念，让时间变得很慢很慢，即使只是短短的一天。


人人都说思念像海水，不但一波接一波，而且还永无止境；

我说，思念就像跌入无底深渊，不踏实地跌呀跌，任凭自己再呐喊，也只听见自己的回音。


我想最近，你的双腿一定很酸很累，因为我的思念有你；

我的双脚也很酸很累，那是不是在你的思念里，也有我的影子？

意会

在物理定律下的任何事物，都有期限或周期，开始和结束，都是必然的过程

一个周期的结束，也意味着一个周期的开始

卸任后的守护天使，只能把祝福，交给续任的守护天使

看似结束，又像开始

微风秋意，落叶归根
大树问叶子：“你这么可以说走就走？”
叶子说：“如果我不离开，你就无法生长出更多更好的树叶啊。”
叶子从树上落下，究竟是叶子的无情，还是大树的多情？

有火的蜡烛，可以照亮周遭，总是耀眼的；

当黑夜来临，熄灭后的蜡烛，没人看见它的孤单。

~ . ~

这一切，都无法言传，只能意会。

时间管理的好帮手

透过Herbalife这几年的洗礼，我明白自我管理十分地重要，尤其是时间管理，因为不管你喜不喜欢，时间总是一分一秒地流逝，一点情面都不给。

 

我习惯用电脑管理我的挡案，当然也包括了时间表，我一直都很推崇Google的工具，比如这套Google Calendar，我可以安排每日行程，也可以列下要完成的清单，而且Google Calendar能够让我们为每个event设立reminder，可以透过email, sms 或 desktop来提醒我。

除此之外，我也可以设立不同的时间表，并用不同的颜色来区别。

买了HTC Desire HD后，开始连接它到我的Google账户，使用内置的Calendar，然后，再下载 Astrid Task 来管理我的工作清单(ToDo list)。

 

现在，去到那里都可以直接看看自己的时间表、更改或更新自己的行程，感觉很踏实。

目前，自己最大的挑战是要把那Daily Routine弄得更有绩效 (productice)，而不是Busy for Nothing。

 

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4. 整合时间表和清单管理

劣势：

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一半

演唱：丁当

词：管启源 曲：宇珩

喝酒的伴 一起看电影的伴
早午晚餐的那个伴
朋友不能留得太晚
明天要上班
唱K的伴 一起去旅行的伴
听懂我的笑话的伴
我的生活 只差那个人就美满

快乐剩一人分享 快乐就只剩一半
喝一碗汤
心怎么都不够暖
这张被单 这张睡床
再舒服都觉得太宽
没人分享 幸福就只剩一半
就算把日子都填满
节日却提醒我孤单

没有想法 有想法又能怎样
只能写部落格整晚
几个留言安慰不了 心里的遗憾
没有负担 原来也是种负担
自由多得让人心慌
你羡慕我 那要不要跟我交换
快乐剩一人分享 快乐就只剩一半

喝一碗汤
心怎么都不够暖
这张被单 这张睡床
再舒服都觉得太宽
没人分享 幸福就只剩一半
努力把日子填满
别来提醒 我多孤单
快乐剩一人分享 快乐就只剩一半

喝一碗汤
心怎么都不够暖
这张被单 这张睡床
再舒服都觉得太宽
没人分享 幸福就只剩一半
就算把日子都填满
没人知道我多孤单

 

永远怀念的

阿公，这是我唯一还能找到的照片，虽然只是仅仅的一张，但阿公的容颜永远都会存留在心里。

阿公，在我能记忆的过程不算长，如果懂事的年龄算是五岁开始，那么阿公只在我的有记忆岁月里待六年而已。

从自己的有限记忆，加上妈的口述里，阿公是一个明白事理的人，更是一个很有能耐的人，因为他一个人从中国来到马来亚，并白手起家。

还记得在阿公的最后岁月里，我每天拿着老妈子煮好的麦片粥，送到阿公的面前，阿公都是用他颤抖的手一匙一匙地吃。

那是一个星期六的夜晚，阿公走得很突然，也很安祥。

 

这是我的外婆，还没离开我们前，她住在马六甲，靠近青云亭，外婆的家是亚达屋，而且门前有很多大大小小的树桐，因为外婆家是做手工木屐的，所以对小时候的我而言，是个很多积木的地方。

因为小时候会晕车，所以有时很抗拒坐远程的巴士，因此在记忆中，没有太多片段可回忆，但外婆的慈祥笑容，是我永远无法忘记的。

记得有一次要离开马六甲前，我和妈妈姐姐坐三轮车从亚达屋到Hang Tuah车站，外婆一直送我们到路口才挥手离开…

等待，是漫长的

原本是要买给自己的2011年开年大礼，如今等下等下就已经是三个星期，都快变成长颈鹿了，吼！

曾经，快被Samsung Galaxy Tab和iPhone这两只妖怪诱惑掉了，也曾一度想要放弃算了，还好自己的定力还ok，但我依然要问，好要让我等多久呢？如果不能是阳历新年礼物，至少也让它成为我的农历新年礼物吧！

 

曾经听过某人说过（还是某篇文章），如果你要买某样东西，就先让自己考虑三天，三天后，如果还要买，就再考虑多三天，以此类推（但不是没完没了地考虑），我看看我自己，过了三天又三天，我是真的要咯。

HTC Desire HD，你到什么时候才来到我身边呢？

转贴：丟了的自己，要記得撿回來

有時候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人說話，只想一個人靜靜的發呆。
有時候，突然覺得心情煩躁，看什麼都覺得不舒服，心裏悶的發慌，拼命想尋找一個出口。
有時候，發現身邊的人都不瞭解自己，面對著身邊的人，突然覺得說不出話。
有時候，感覺自己與世界格格不入，曾經一直堅持的東西一夜間面目全非。
有時候，突然很想逃離現在的生活，想不顧一切收拾自己簡單的行李去流浪。 
有時候，別人突然對你說，我覺得你變了，然後自己開始百感交集。
有時候，希望時間為自己停下，做完己還沒來得及做的事情。
有時候，想一個人躲起來脆弱，不願別人看到自己的傷口。　 
有時候，突然很想哭，卻難過的哭不出來。 　　 
有時候，夜深人靜，突然覺得不是睡不著，而是固執地不想睡。 　　 
有時候，走過熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一個人的臉。 　　 
有時候，明明自己心裏有很多話要說，卻不知道怎樣表達。 　　 
有時候，覺得自己擁有著整個世界，一瞬間卻又覺得自己其實一無所有。 　　 


真的只是有時候，明明自己身邊很多朋友，卻依然覺得孤單。 　　 
有時候，很想放縱自己，希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里地發一次瘋。 　　 
有時候，突然找不到自己，把自己丟的 無影無蹤。 　　 
有時候，心裏突然冒出一種厭倦的情緒，覺得自己很累很累。 　　 
有時候，看不到自己未來的樣子，迷茫的不知所措。 　　 
有時候，發現自己一夜之間長大了。 　　 
有時候，聽到一首歌，就會突然想起一個人。 　　
有時候，希望能找個人好好疼愛自己，渴望一種安全感，可當那個可以疼你的人出現的時候，你卻偏執地退隱。 　　 
有時候，別人誤解了自己有口無心的一句話，心裏鬱悶的發慌。 　　 
有時候，被別人傷害，嘴上講沒事，其實心裏難過的要死。 　　 
有時候，常常在回憶裏掙扎，有很多過去無法釋懷。 　　 
有時候，很容易感動別人的關懷， 有時候卻麻木地像個笨蛋。 　　 
有時候，看著時間一點點流逝，任憑歎息，自己卻無能為力。 　　 
其實，有時候，真的會想這麼多。　　 


跟朋友裝沉默，跟陌生人講心裏話。
對於在乎你的，不想讓他們擔心，
有時候，沒有消息就是一種好消息。
其實，很想說“我很好”，或許是昧著心說謊，也只是想把最燦爛的一面，放在每個人對自己印象的首頁。 　　 

丟了的自己，要記得撿回來 :)
~ 一个微笑，一个祝福 ~

生日快乐

今天22号，踏入自己的第29个年头，也为自己的三字头开始倒数...

感恩珊珊的生日晚餐及拍照，

感恩当晚为我唱生日歌的一群Michelangelo意大利餐厅的员工，

感恩当天一早在STS会前会为我唱生日的家人伙伴，

感恩在Facebook传来祝福的所有家人朋友们，

还有感恩用SMS祝福我的好知己 ~ 文湿，

最重要的，要感恩我的妈妈在29年前把我生下来，让我有机会来到这世界，养育我及呵护我。


过去的许多风风雨雨，2010年可算是一个转折点，心态更为明朗，思绪上更为稳定，更明白自己要些什么，也清楚知道自己要成为怎样的一个人......

男人30而立，更加感恩于周遭所发生的每一件事，因为这一切造就了今天的我 ;)

现在继续为自己在30岁前定下的梦想而努力 ~ 我相信，财务自由已经为我准备好了 : )

认真 . 生活

当一个人空闲的时候，就容易有个念头 ~ 接下来我要做什么呢？

生活在万花缤纷的城市里，不难找不到节目来消遣，但很多时候都发觉，自己不怎么会去“享受”这些节目。

我喜欢看电影，因为电影可以体现出不一样的生命历练。

我喜欢看书，虽然现今网络盛行，我依然相信书是许多事的答案，我更喜欢书带给的那份宁静。

我喜欢偶尔下厨，从不同的食材中调配出不同的韵味，最近更爱上打奶昔，因为可以看见俱乐部里朋友们的满足笑容。

我偶尔喜欢逛街，走在繁忙的人行道，看看平时因驾车而匆匆扫过的街道，也让我细心看清街道上每个建筑物的美。

我喜欢玩策略性游戏，很久没碰了，但那份沉迷及成就感依然让我觉得过瘾！

我喜欢旅游，看看每个地方的不同文化与背景，但认识我的人都知道，我也是个工作狂，如果手上依然有未完成工作，我会心不在焉地旅游.... -_-

我喜欢摄影，因为除了文字，最容易让时间停留下来的就是影像了。

我喜欢探索，这让我感觉无穷无尽的魅力，科学地理历史文化人性玄学，我都有兴趣！

我喜欢偶尔独处，沉淀自己、审视自己、放松自己，认真思考自己的所要的生活。

专注自己想要的，就能让眼前的世界变得美好。

生命不如意事十之八九，与其抱怨，不如积极。

~

我是个重感觉的人，感觉不好，我就提不起劲；我也是个重质感的人，空洞无聊的事，更让我想停止。

我生活，坚持要有目标，不然，我会觉得自己活得很无聊。

我相信，能让生命持续燃烧的目标，必须是能达到但又无止境的。

生命的价值是被自己追求的，我相信注定，但我不相信听天由命。

慢慢地，我发现，自己最想要的，是心灵上的平静及安稳，加上有感觉的每一天。

人性，人心

昨天去二哥在Rawang的家，几兄弟聚在一块，就是为了替爸妈庆祝４２结婚周年，一直都有注意到开始白发斑白的爸妈，都验证了岁月飞逝，唯有能锁着的是，科技下的影像及自己的回忆了。

４２年是４个世纪，是５０４个月，是１８３９７０天，更是很多分及很多秒，在这流逝的时光下，还有什么也流逝了呢？

刚刚才观赏了赵文卓和周迅的＂苏乞儿＂，里头袁英（周迅饰）说道，“我们是夫妻，要同甘也要共苦，更要同醉”，在现代的爱情故事里头，还有多少个是真正有爱的呢？是爱自己，还是爱对方呢？

爱人，能让人感到温暖；爱自己，却可以催鼓仇恨、嫉妒。

千年以前，墨家就已提倡兼爱，但战争依旧、争权夺利、人事非非，是人不会学习成长，还是人性难改？

流逝的十年，已让我开始懂了，细心品尝生活中的甜酸苦辣。

[踏实筑梦] - 冬至

今天是华人的大日子 ~ 冬至，但在马来西亚这国度，今天依然是工作天，对于很多离乡背井的游子来说，回乡团聚还是有一定的难度。:(

今天早上，拨了通电话回家给妈妈，在放下电话筒的那一刻，心情有点沉重......

当初来到Herbalife是因为梦想，因为执著于梦想，所以准备好牺牲 ~

给自己下承诺，这是最后一次

[生活点滴] - 学做生活家

今天是星期天，也是我决定自己假期休息的其中一天（还是有做点东西啦！）。

先是下午走去Pavillion跟Zack来个下午茶闲聊，聊聊生活，聊聊近况，我们都知道，小时候，当我们写作文时，都会写到自己长大后要当画家啦，作家啦，科学家啦等等等，Zack告诉我，为什么没人说要当个生活家呢？这句话，这名词，让我深思了一会儿，我想当个生活家 ;)

Pavillion的Coffee Beans，我点了杯Mocha Blended没cream。

~

晚上，跟一个鬼佬Paulo去看港片《窃听风云》，一出不错的影片，看了过后就在想，一个错误的决定竟然造就这么一个结果，是环境逼人么？还是其实，他们选择错的方向呢？

选择大于努力，我无法马上改变结局，但我可以马上改变方向。

[均衡营养] Wake Up with Full of Energy

This is what I am drinking every single night before I went on bed (about 15-30 minutes before).

From Monday to Friday, I got to wake up at 6:00am SHARP and get myself ready to take train at 6:30am. I like to work earlier in morning as I can feel more fresh. Additionally, many works can be done if I wake up early, this create a lot of time for me to work on other things.

But every night, my sleeping time is around 12:00am-1:00am. It means I sleep for about 5 hours a day only but now I can keep my energy up as soon as I open my eyes. If goes back to last time, definitely I will be collapse if I continue on this kind of living style for few day.

I like the feeling of being energetic!!!

[均衡营养] LiftOff 感觉太棒了！

这几天的平均睡眠时间只有4小时左右，所以开始有“钓鱼”的倾向，尤其是在Office处理cases的时候，因为眼睛必须长时间对着电脑，甚至，在走路、上厕所、打sms、吃饭的时候都会有昏昏沉沉的感觉，眼皮重到不行。

所以，今早来office之前，就记得拿了包liftOff Energy Drink，是Jeffrey和Connie给我们的，在8点多的时候，喝了热带水果口味的奶昔后，就马上准备了杯约200毫升的冷水，丢了粒liftOff（如马币50仙般大小）进去，一会儿就把它给喝完了。

马上的，的确是马上的，我感觉到整个人精神了起来！很难用言语来形容，只有亲身体验后才知道，这感觉的确是太棒太棒了，现在终于可以很轻松地专注地处理手头上的工作了。Really Fuel Good!

[工作事业] Colleagues on Herbalife

As some of you may know, I am working for full time job - IT Engineer.

As most of you don't know, my company is CustomWare Asia Pacific, located in Plaza Sentral.

This is my fifth month in this company. Since the first day (4th August 2008) I was inside this company, I use Herbalife shake on my every single day inside the office. I put my F1 container & tea mix container on my table, and I shake it inside pantry, and I drink it publicly. Of course, colleagues around me start to ask me. I just share from consumer point of view - I use it for healthy breakfast, for weight gain purpose, etc.

On last week, such a coincidence, two of my colleagues ask me on how to use herbalife to lose weight (same day, on different time, different place). I do nothing more than what I should do. Guess what? I just say "Are you serious?", both of them say "Yes" to me. Then, I just recommend them to San San, because I have promoted San San (she is professional coach that has helped a lot of others). Later, I pass their phone number to San San for appointment booking.

Two days later, San San was coming to my office to meet with them. Another colleague is looking for weight gain solution as well, so she want to listen together. After measurement & consultation, three of them want to start after 1 week later (coz Christmas was around the corner). On yesterday, San San came to my office building again to help them start the program. Each of them starts with 2 formula 1 program (do u know how much is the profit?).

Definitely, they can get the result they want to start a whole new year of 2009! All the best to three of them :D

[做生活家] Christmas Day

Just finished draft copy of English Retail Video presentation slide. This upcoming new video would be more toward healthy breakfast concept as the basis. But we still can upgrade customer to either weight loss or weight program if customer want to. Later will send it to Nikklo for recording work.

Also, need to start look at local advertisement campaign within Klang Valley area. Just communicated with Andrew Coltman, now is the time to work out a better year in 2009.

Later will go out with babie and walk walk around One Utama & The Curve area. Huuuuh.... today is a holiday for me (normally i need to work even if it is holiday!) :D ... Just relax..

tonight there is another marketing plan conference call at about 8pm... so just get myself ready on this.

now awaiting for New Year Eve Countdown & Team Gathering at 31st Dec 2008. Will release the details very very soon... :D

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!

[个人成长] It happens to EVERYBODY

Today afternoon, I ride a taxi from Damansara Height to KL Sentra.

During the journey, there were some places got traffic jam due to some reasons. Then, the taxi driver told me.. "there are so many cars in double parking** and this create such as traffic jam in this area. Look at them, the truck driver have to park his car like this, otherwise he can't unload the things down."

I smiled & give a super common answer - "yea... no choice" (is that really no choice?)

0-O

I dare to say... Everybody (including me as well) is ever to say "I can't do because of X, Y, Z".. This X, Y, Z could be anything that were happening.

Just for a simple example, economic is downturn right now. Some people might say, "this business cannot do because people has no money to buy".. even some people may say "i don't think I can success because nobody is buying from me" or etc...

What I can comment here to these is "what happen to you, also happens to everybody". The question is "how you are going to handle it?".

Since it happens to everybody, how come some people fail, and some people success? Is this something really interesting?

Once again, Life is full of choices.

About life, you can choose to plant seeds in the spring, or to beg in autumn.

你可以选择在春天插秧，或者在秋天乞求。

-Remark-

** Double Parking: Person A park his/her car along a road is not main for parking. Later, person B park his/her car side by side with person A's car.

[工作事业] Just finish another Saturday

Weekend seems to be so valuable for me! Why? because I have only 2 days to concentrate on my herbalife work, out of 7 days a week...

woke up at 6.45am this morning, coz we have our first wellness evaluation booth in one of recreation site in TTDI, damansara. Early in the morning, there are so many people out there for exercise... mostly with smile (probably they are so relax...)... It was a good start for us... stayed over there for about 1 1/4 hours... i guessed four of us (me, sansan, nikklo & angeline) were being able to do more than 20+ free wellness evaluation... We think this could be another variation of effective DMO from our existing roadshow... ；)

after went back to home, took a quick power nap.. to recharged.

Later, we went out to Herbalife office to meet with some of our partners to talk about the HBL500 plan. I was able to show this plan to Ken & Queenny only... coz both of them were not so clear about this plan yet. Besides, we talked with Ken's upcoming supervisors - Gong Ling & Wee Mun... they were making an order with 2500vp together with 1 Spectacular ticket purchased. Before I left, was able to meet with Li Yen. She was rushing into the Herbalife office (about 2.50pm ++... few more minutes before office close) with her sister... coz she made a 2500vp order on yesterday... so would like to pick up the order.

Then, me, sansan & aws went to lunch at burger king KLCC. After that, still have to rush to Connought, Cheras to meet with another retail prospect - tracy. She is going to start her program when get her salary on this month...

reach home at around 7.45pm.. was a little bit tired.

started to work again on the google advertisement, nutritionWorks dashboard, blog, etc.. at the meanwhile, was guiding may on the HBL500 plan as well. Also, called zack to help up aws in making 1000vp order in singapore next week. Later, need to write a "How To" documentation so that other people can know how to make order from oversea, particularly in Singapore...

dick was sms me... i knew he was tired after attended his boss's wedding.. so just postpone the HBL500 plan meeting with him to tomorrow...

:| still dowing the adobe illustrator... wish to make it done on tomorrow so that i can start design a new banner for wellness evaluation...

0_o now actually is 2.37am, 2nd Nov 2008.. going to bed :0

[生活点滴] Unexpected "Pitched"

Today I was going to my regular car workshop in Kelana Jaya to perform car maintainance. The moment I reached the workshop office, the lady shop owner quickly asked me on how does our Herbalife Weightloss program works. She would like to help her son to lose weight as she want him to be more healthier. However, her son is going to fly to U.K. for study in coming week. Therefore, I got his son phone number so that San San can arrange a body analysis appointment with him before he leaves.

Actually, I never talk with her about anything on herbalife or weightlose before. However, she did see my car (with BIG stickers - LOSE WEIGHT NOW, ASK ME HOW) all the time. Indirectly, she was being pitched by my car whenever I went to her car workshop :)

Also, she told me that she can't remember my car registration number, otherwise she would call me at that time (luckily I went to her shop today :D)

What is the lesson in this case? We never know who are the person that want to look for a solution, therefore the easier way is to let everybody around you know that you are in the business! (Imagize a shop without any signboard outside... nobody would know what are u offering to them!)